Even in the sea of lost desires and dreams, I am holding onto faith and God. All I can do is to spread Goodness and Kindness around. It actually helps to cope with the enormous challenges I face every day. And Kindness is contagious. Al though I am doing it for selfish reasons but I am happy that It is making me happy!

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