The problem is that I really do not understand everything. Why would they think that a particular field is better for me when I clearly have no idea about it ? On the other hand, I have no idea about the other field. Then again, Beggars can't be chooser. I have the credentials which suits the less competitive field. And Am I willing to waste so many years trying to get into a field in which I have small experience. Should I blindly take the path which is easier than the other path? Then again, my own ego would never allow me to rest in peace, if I go into the less competitive field. My own ego would always push me to achieve a different goal. Or will I be satisfied with my life? Am I willing to go back to my homeland, and start everything from scratch. Why would God want me to take this journey? Should I go back without even trying to find the shore! So many questions!
Not today!
Why didn't she fight for us? Wasn't I a good friend to her? I did everything for her and supported her through out. I do not expect her to reciprocate these things but I expect her to be a good friend and end things well with me. She owes that much to me.... At least, that is what I thought. The flash backs that I have about us are enough to pull me into a spiral of constant negative self talk for at least a day. Every day without her was a challenge at the start but the healing process has probably started. However, there are some bad days like today when I am reminded that she exist. On days like today, I wish that she will reach out to me and make things right between us...However, It is not right that I am still expecting her to reach out to me to make things right between us. I know for a fact that no matter what she will say she can not fix anything. Then expecting anything from her is just idiotic. Realizing that people especially good people in your life can l...
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