The problem is that I really do not understand everything. Why would they think that a particular field is better for me when I clearly have no idea about it ? On the other hand, I have no idea about the other field. Then again, Beggars can't be chooser. I have the credentials which suits the less competitive field. And Am I willing to waste so many years trying to get into a field in which I have small experience. Should I blindly take the path which is easier than the other path? Then again, my own ego would never allow me to rest in peace, if I go into the less competitive field. My own ego would always push me to achieve a different goal. Or will I be satisfied with my life? Am I willing to go back to my homeland, and start everything from scratch. Why would God want me to take this journey? Should I go back without even trying to find the shore! So many questions!
That Kit Kat and ICU night call
I was reading some of the older posts. I have grown a lot but still a kid when it comes to certain things. I have decided to be more open about things. I find this place a safe place to vent out my feelings and emotions. Therefore, some of the post will not make sense to a lot of people but it is just a medium for me to express some of my crazy thoughts, dreams and emotions. I have always struggled with my feelings and emotions. Honestly, I have buried myself in work so I do not have free time to think about the heavy stuff! Working in the ICU helps me concentrate on making life and death decisions rather than thinking about my problems and feelings. Still struggling though! Let me tell you what happened to me yesterday! I was on call in the ICU overnight I went to grab a Kit Kat from the vending machine. I went there and got it. When I opened the wrap, it was melted. I was so heart broken. I really wanted one! I could have really used it since I was struggling with so many ...
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