The problem is that I really do not understand everything. Why would they think that a particular field is better for me when I clearly have no idea about it ? On the other hand, I have no idea about the other field. Then again, Beggars can't be chooser. I have the credentials which suits the less competitive field. And Am I willing to waste so many years trying to get into a field in which I have small experience. Should I blindly take the path which is easier than the other path? Then again, my own ego would never allow me to rest in peace, if I go into the less competitive field. My own ego would always push me to achieve a different goal. Or will I be satisfied with my life? Am I willing to go back to my homeland, and start everything from scratch. Why would God want me to take this journey? Should I go back without even trying to find the shore! So many questions!
My Atomic Life
I have a habbit of keeping people at a safe distance from knowing me no matter how close they are to me. Like the electrons of the atom, i keep them in different orbits. The closer, the nearer to the nucleus. As the persons from different orbits jump close to the nucleus a new aspect of the whole atom is created and as they move away from nucleus a new aspect is again created. Its impossible for the electrons to fall into the nucleus. Its devastating for the Atomic life. Moreover its impossible for the nucleus to survive alone. Different person know me differently. The reason is that i treat them differently. I have a habbit of pushing away anyone that tries to gain entry into the small box in my heart that i keep hidden in the core of my heart ! Its an Atomic life. Moreover i think that atomic life doesnt solely belongs to me. Everyone leads his/her life like this. There are few things that you hide from the rest of the world. You feel safe by keeping these secret. Once these secrets...
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