I don't expect my friend to know my favorite color, dish and other minute details about my life. It will be great if He does that. The one thing I expect from him to is to show up when I need him or else come up with a perfect excuse.
Why didn't she fight for us? Wasn't I a good friend to her? I did everything for her and supported her through out. I do not expect her to reciprocate these things but I expect her to be a good friend and end things well with me. She owes that much to me.... At least, that is what I thought. The flash backs that I have about us are enough to pull me into a spiral of constant negative self talk for at least a day. Every day without her was a challenge at the start but the healing process has probably started. However, there are some bad days like today when I am reminded that she exist. On days like today, I wish that she will reach out to me and make things right between us...However, It is not right that I am still expecting her to reach out to me to make things right between us. I know for a fact that no matter what she will say she can not fix anything. Then expecting anything from her is just idiotic. Realizing that people especially good people in your life can l...
One day when all of this is over, you will look back at this and see that you were lucky.. You need to be proud of yourself. You have been brave. You have been taking decisions and facing the consequences of your decisions...Welcome to adulthood! Obviously, you want that person to stay in your life in a different capacity. But you know that will never happen. The question remains whether you still want her in your life or you can move on without her... Move on to a different person who will reciprocate your feeling...Move on to something better for you...At this time, you do not know how this will play out...You asked her for time and space..and told her that you wished her all the happiness in the world.. She deserves nothing less than that..You pray for her that she will find her best friend and get married to him... So my emotional rant is almost over... Like Coldplay said once, " You love someone but it goes to waste"... You love someone unconditionally which mean...
Long time since we talked...... So, I cleared my step 2 CK and CS exam. I scored 231 in CK. Al though not a great score to cover my CS attempt, but I am hopeful that I will match this year. I have applied in lots of programs. Hopefully someone somewhere may realize that we are more than just scores . Well, I started contacting a lot of my friends and colleagues to help me with an interview call. I am also seeking help from strangers. Al though, I find this practise futile and useless. And to be very honest, they are reluctant to help me because I do not have the credentials. It is neither their fault nor mine, I can understand how problematic it could be for them. Interestingly, one of my friends told me that you can email the program director and tell him that you are my class fellow and you have heard great things about the program. CS is an exam which is totally unpredictable. Anything can happen to anyone. I may not be the brightest student or I may not have best of luck with me...
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