The Doctor with the White Steth

Happy new year. I got so busy in my studies that I entirely forgot about writing this blog. 2011 was a good year for me. It gave me a lot of opportunities and I thank God for providing everything to me. I can't imagine a single day without God. I can't imagine my life without God. Thank you for everything.    I have seen people. I hurt someone I really respect. I decided never to do that ever again. He deserves a lot of my respect....I was never a honest person. I lied to a lot of people. I will try to change that. And Yes I am looking for new friends. Really good one!! Most importantly I want to get done with my USMLE exams in 2012. Hopefully by the end of this year InshaALLAH! Need a lot of prayers. To all my readers out there, please try to leave an comment or something. It would help motivating me. Thank you.

Unless I find a way to channelize all my energy, I will not settle down. A desire to be better and a passion to create my own way drives my day. A hope!! Now, I just need luck on my side and things will be fine!! IA! Tell you something interesting... There are people I know who would contact me only when they want something. There are people who text me with questions related to their studies and other stuff. When I answer them,they don't even reply back with a thank you(this is just mean..don't you think!?). I didn't know that people can be so mean and selfish sometimes. First, I tried to ignore it. But it  is really giving me the feeling that some people are so self absorbed with their own lives that they don't care about the people they use. It's all about them. They want people to talk about them. They want people to care about them. They seek attention. But let me tell you something, you don't get something which you are not able to give it to others. It

Even my dreams are getting realistic. I used to be a crazy dreamer. I used to dream about things I can never Have. I used to make up fictional characters and live their lives in my head. I still do that at times but deep down inside I know that I wont be able to achieve those dreams or live their lives.

X-- I am not doing it for money. This would bring peace to me. This is important to me. I face you everyday with your same questions but I don't have new answers for you. I  hate your perfect ways and your perfect world. I hate to admit it but I realized that I am turning into a perfectionist myself. I live by specific rules and principles. I am afraid that I am becoming like you. And people like us always end up alone!

. There are people u like, love and hate. We all label people with these emotions.But we sometimes mix everything up.We label the wrongs tags on the people or may be they are just PEOPLE. They are just people! You can't expect that somebody would do good for you if u have done something good for them. We make a brief journey with the people around us.We stick with them for seconds or minutes or hours or years! We try to make a difference in their lives and we try to be an important part of their lives. But everything ends.We move on. The Journey and the Companions! End of story. Define your life with good people around you and believe in the fact that you are never alone. Believe that your God is with you all the time. Do good and give charity. You will be rewarded after you are resurrected on the Day of Judgement. May be there is where you peace lies!!

My back pain is a pain in the ass! Literally Speaking! :D This post is just stupid. Yeah I dont want to make any sense today! Morbidity is worse than mortality because you have to live your every second with it!

I am kind of a person who believes in fixing things. I try my best to make the people around me happy. When a friend of mine is in trouble, I just know what is wrong with him. I try to set things right. But recently, I have found that I won't be able to fix all the things and people. I must confess that I do this for selfish reasons.I do that because I'm unable to solve my own problems. I think that the healing power which comes from helping others tend to help me too. 

“Most people like to own things, you know, land, luggage, other people. Makes them feel secure, but all that can be taken away. In the end the only thing you really own is your story.” -Drover in Australia

Tribute-Jon Schmidt This is a masterpiece. Some songs force you to fall in love. Sometimes they tell you that something or someone important is missing in your life.

I don't expect my friend to know my favorite color, dish and other minute details about my life. It will be great if He does that. The one thing I expect from him to is to show up when I need him or else come up with a perfect excuse.

I tell everyone not to expect anything great from me. I don't want you to disappoint you when I won't be able to fulfill YOUR dreams and expectations. I am not made for that. There is something I need to confess. I expect something from all of you too. A simple love. Love me for who I am. Remember me in your prayers. Keep it simple.

X- Why did you fight with her stupid!? Y- I gave her a reason to hate me..and then decide who is best for her! X- But you told me that you loved her.. Y- I don't feel right about our relationship! I know she would never choose me. I am just a replacement for her. She wants to fill that void. She feels attracted to me because of that vacuum. X- ...... Is it because your ego cant accept that she loved someone else before she started liking you? Y-  Damn it! you are right! :-(

Its hard to study for USMLE. I lose my concentration after every 5 mins and my mind start thinking about crazy things. And then my appetite has increased.. I cant stop eating! You know its horrible. And then I sleep during the day and work at night. Guess what!! I have perfected the art of staring at the wall without thinking about anything.   Another perfection I acquired recently is the ability to waste time without feeling guilty about anything.   Deep down inside I know that Facebook is a big waste of time. Yet I can’t leave it. For a couple of days, I was really confused about my situation. But I realized that my behavior has deep roots in the anxiety I am having because of my USMLE exams and my personal life.   I see my tasks as insurmountable and I am not able to concentrate on the daily task of studying. I have already been a slow starter. I need that gentle push.   Something is off lately.      Human brain has a built in reward system. We

I went to US for 3 months. It was a different experience. I loved few  things about US especially the way they treat people. Good morning,  Sorry, thank you and Good evening. They use these words so often. They  hold doors for each other. While driving, they care about the  pedestrians(mostly because you get sued if you hit a pedestrian).  Everything and everyone is in working condition. But these are minor  things about USA. Just few things, I learned over there. Some  people ask from me. Is America better than Pakistan?.. I dont know what  to say to them. I love Pakistan no doubt. On my way back to Pakistan, I  saw funny things about Pakistanis on Dubai International Airport. The  Flight assistant announced the boarding for the flight and told everyone  that family and people who need assistance should come first. But  nobody understood him and rushed to towards the door. Many of Pakistanis  are uneducated and they dont know English. It was like as If I reached a  local fish market

O lord! You have cursed me with a heart and you have crushed it ruthlessly Nevertheless You seek gratitude in return For all the blessings and the mourns You claim my bliss With all my unfruitful dreams and hollow screams You take joy when I plead, When I seek absolution, For all my sins and candid deeds. But its time, my Lord To pay heed, To my fading appeal...

Guess who is back! Me! 5 months! God! It was hard to study for my final professional. But I guess its over. I still cant believe that its over. But the exams are finally over. Now! I am waiting for my result!! I guess Prayers do matter a lot and I would be expecting all of you to pray for my result.And you know what! these 5 months have given me a chance to become a better person. I dont know how but I feel as if I am changed. And I have so much positive energy in me now. Regarding the X-series. I will keep on posting things about people around me. I wont name them but I will simply use the Letter X or Y to convey their messages. I dont want anyone to get the wrong idea that I am Mr. or Miss X ! :D But If you think so, then what can i do! :P The thing about life is that Its Life. Unpredictable and Unfair. But Life would have been boring, if it was predictable. I guess the only predictable thing about life is that its Unpredictable.